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Graceful Perseverance: "Where is God?"

Posted May 28th, 2014 @ 01:05pm

Welcome back to my weekly blog, everyone! First, I would like to thank everyone for returning to my blog cafe each week. The numbers are climbing. Over the past few weeks the comment responses went from 52  to over 348 comments. There are many of us who are "thirsty" for more. The many wonderful comments from last week are wonderful and keep me motivated to continue writing what I am so thirsty for in this season of my life: a deeper loving relationship with Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior.

This week's blog is not only asking the question, "Where is God?" but answering the question from my personal Cross silhouette and the holy blue skyperspective of life experiences so that we may gain knowledge, wisdom, discernment, courage and understanding in all that we do for His glory. I often refer to God as our teacher, and we are His students. When the teacher is quiet, it's because we the students are taking many tests in every season of our lives. Today, I talk about four of my major life tests - Survival, Abandonment, Self-love and Faith. Remember, for every test we endure, God has a reason and a plan.

"Where is God?" God is everywhere, all the time. God is the creator of Heaven and earth: from the birds to the trees, to the mountains and valleys; from the streams to the oceans, from the moon to the stars and the sun, He is the master of our universe. He is the creator of man and all creatures of this earth. He knows how many hairs are on your head. He's the beginning and the end. And not only is He the Master of all His creations, He sacrificed His only Son to save us so that we may have eternal life. And so that we would not die but be saved by the Son of God, Jesus the Messiah, the Great Comforter, the King of Kings, Lord of Lords, Emmanuel, Lamb of God, Alpha, Omega, Jehovah’s Servant, (not sure about this one- I added the apostrophe) Christ, Wonderful Counselor, Jesus - The Way, the Truth and the Light.

According to Ecclesiastes 3:11-14 (NIV) "He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him."

"Where was God in my survival life test?"God was with me in my mother's womb. I was born into this world through a mother who suffered Paranoid Schizophrenia that went untreated. bookSurvivors-mGod first spoke to me when I was in my small dark closet as a 3-year-old little girl. It was God's soft, faint voice, who said to me "It's almost over, it's not you, it's her!" It was His voice that kept me hanging on, so that I would not give in or give up, would endure and overcome the beatings, the daily tortures and near death experiences inflicted upon me as a little girl. (A Survivor's Closet 2003)

"Where was God in my life test of abandonment from those who claimed to love me?" God was with me when I was 6 years old, when my mother dropped me off curbside at Maricopa County Social Services. I sat on His lap and He held me tight and poured His love over me, a love that no one else could give me. The social worker who held me was Jesus in disguise. He blessed me with the strength and courage to keep pressing on, to persevere, even when those around me continued to cause me great sorrow and pain. God was there after three years of foster care, and a rape at the age of 6 by a foster brother. God was there picking me up from the ashes and filling my core with His divine courage so that I would continue to press on, persevere, even in the midst of the storms. He was my anchor when I couldn't rely on anyone or anything of this world. (A Survivor's Closet 2003)

"Where was God in my self-love life test?" I had passed the test of survival. I had passed the test of abandonment. The seasonal test of self-worth, self-love, would continue for many years going forward. By the age of 9, I was looking into the mirror and asking the reflection, "Who are you?" "Where do you belong?" I had lost myself in the midst of my childhood darkness. I had lost my identity. I felt like a piece of unclaimed luggage going around and around the carousel in an airport, with no one claiming me. Yet bookOnce-manother test was before me. I had to learn to fly, F.L.Y. - first love yourself (Chapter 1 of my 4th book). With 26 years of talk therapy, two suicide attempts, two failed marriages, I was at rock bottom. I was in the pit and did not have a clue who was going to reach down and pull me out. For the first time in 30 years I found myself "alone." I was surrounded by four walls and no strength to get up on my own. I didn't knobookLight-mw who I was without the title of mother or wife. I walked a very deep and dark path to learn who I am. There were many nights on my knees, crying out to God for help. It is when we have nowhere else to turn that we finally look up. It is then that we turn upward and cry out to someone or something we cannot see with our eyes, but we feel in our souls. It is in these moments of our lives that we cry out to God for His mercy and grace. ("...and then there was LIGHT" 2004 and Once Upon a Man 2013)

"Where was God in my faith life test?" Another test, but this test was a test of divine faith. By this season of my life was I really a woman after God's heart or was this test going to take me to the next level of faith? How would I ever overcome and trust in God when He took my third son away from me? God bookSoulset-mblessed me with four beautiful sons and trusted that I would care for them for their short time here on earth. I buried my third son, Bryce Lee on July 21, 2005. The test for me was about my faith. Did I really have a love for Christ so deep in my core that I would know that even in death, even in the midst of a parent's worst nightmare that I would once again have my faith challenged in one of the darkest seasons of my life? Would I turn to God for comfort and for the whys? Yes, God walked beside me in this test of faith, as well as every test I have undergone and will continue to go through in my lifetime. I am a living testimony that there is something bigger than me. I know my Heavenly Father and I know He loves me more deeply than anyone could. I know that I am a child of God's and every test that I pass is for His glory and is preparing me for His divine plan for my life. (Why we Cry for a Soul set Free 2005)

So, "Where is God?" God is everywhere! God is our teacher, we are His students and our life is the classroom. We are all always in a test of time for everything.

A Test of Time for Everything - There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under Heaven; a time to be born and a time to die, a timeTime To Learn Concept to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, a time to search and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace. Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 (NIV)

God Bless,

Debra M. Pauli

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Stay on track with your personal quest, as God is with you always. Remember what I say, "Where God resides and abides, He guides and provides." Blessings, Debra! Dahk Knox

on May 28th, 2014 at 03:42pm

Great post!

on May 31st, 2014 at 09:08pm
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